The Outward Lie: What They Think

People observed my outward existence

They judged me as they saw me from a distance.

This is when all the fake smiles turned into expressionless faces

There were fake concerns and fake greetings in most of the cases.

Their behaviour conveyed a lot

When in group activities, I was denied a single spot.

I could sense the hatred, I could catch the lies

But all I could do was- tell myself that time flies.

This continued to get worse and worse

It felt like a never-ending curse.

It took me a while to finally realize

There was still some good apart from these fake people and their evil lies.

Amidst all this, I found a rare bunch of the genuine kind

They stood beside me and took care of my affected mind.

I learnt a lot during my distressed phase

Due to the disrespectful and materialistic behaviour that I had to deal with- in different ways.

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I could sense the hatred, I could catch the lies But all I could do was- tell myself that time flies.

Explanation:

To experience anxiety issues, accept it and deal with it daily is a tough job. It drains the entire energy out of one. During this phase, I faced a lot of struggles out of which dealing with people's mindsets regarding me was a very sad point. I realized how a lot of people were materialistic and fake. I learnt what it is like dealing with such people while trying to protect your sanity at the same time. I felt disrespected and secluded. Can you imagine how hard it is for a person, dealing with severe anxiety issues, to face this kind of situation?

As a writer, I want to pass on a message to all of you reading this- "You will meet a lot of people in your life. Not every person you meet is going to be good to you. You will have to deal with it and learn your share of lessons. This will hurt during the process, but trust me- the end result will be beautiful. People walk in and out of our lives and there is a serene reason behind this. It will all make sense slowly."